every day in may (this one’s about music!)

today’s challenge is to share ‘five songs or pieces of music that speak to you or bring back memories. Use Grooveshark or YouTube to include them in the post’ i had n-o-o-o idea how much i would enjoy this..i never knew how many memories a song would evoke! i look forward to reading everyone else’s entries! if you’re having trouble with grooveshark (i did), i linked the youtube video in the artists name 🙂

being a kid + dancing around the house, gloria estefan was my jam! miami sound machine baby! the sprinklers were on in the backyard, chocolate chip pancakes had just been consumed and the ‘rhythm is gonna get ya’ on in the background 🙂

boston for those long summers in college! summers at the lake, going to the drive-in and all of us squeezing in the back of my pickup, trying to sing at all those falsetto parts.. 🙂 i was a bit of a classic rock nut but boston by far takes the cake for me..


i was/am/will be a faithful coldplay listener for foreeever. i have it all from early released whatnot to acoustic version of this and that, memories of waiting in line for cd releases and arriving to a concerts four hours early and nearly crying afterwards with friends (emotional highschoolers we were and all the lights at their concerts!! i had no idea how emotion lights are!). james shares my love + we decided to have this song in our wedding ceremony (when all the friends walked..i walked to norah jones ‘come away with me’). it gives me this vivid memory of waiting for my cue, the electricity of the moment, waiting for the song to come to end and noticing how quiet it got for that split second before i turned.. love it!

feist is eternally my go-to for road trips and ‘inside and out’ is always on my playlist. this song reminds me of windows down, wind in my hair, hanging out with my sista friend chelsea with the open road in front of me!


dave matthews band (dmb) just brings me right back to my last year in high school! when i hear any of the ‘crash’ album, it takes me back to the spring of graduation and all the emotions of that time. saying goodbye, tying up that chapter of life and marching forward into this new season 😉 i got to see dave live a couple times (one at the greek theater in berkeley.. which was so mid-nineties of us all! i hope i was as grungy as i remember) and carter beauford (their drummer) is such a beast.. we watched him almost the entire time. i’ve never danced so much and sang out so loud before 🙂

ps the picture above is sorta irrelevant to this post, but it’s my mom leading the band down main street at disneyland (they used to do that!!) and it was the only music-centric picture i could seem to find at them moment!

every day in may (a letter to you)

for Day 27 of the challenge.. i get to write A letter to [our] readers. so here goes!
dear friends, happy memorial day!! like so many bloggers, i had no idea what i really was getting into when i started this. it’s amazing the sorts of friends you make in this blog land. my favorite part, actually.

and you!! well, i would love to take this chance to share a big thank you to each one of you—you’re all amazeballs. i extremely value each one of your thoughts and responses and scrolling and clicking and whatever way you decide to be apart of this place!!! i don’t think i would’ve kept at it if it weren’t for you. love love love, me 🙂

every day in may (something interesting i read)

happy sunday my friends 🙂

it’s day 26 and today i’m talking about ‘something you read online. Leave a link and discuss, if you’d like.’

the below link from kate at eatthedamncake (a blog looking at ‘beauty, body, womanhood and dessert’..fun right!). she wrote a response to the very popular dove ‘real beauty’ sketches. something about how she perceived it resounded with me and thought i’d help move the conversation forward! check it out here:

every day in may (the value of words)

for Day 25, share something someone told you about yourself that you’ll never forget (good or bad).

about ten years ago, someone told me that when i walk into room, that it was like someone turned a light on and that i brought a joy and lightness wherever i go. so kind. and yet really hard for me to believe it was true.. so much easier to think ‘nah, they don’t really think that’ and pass it over. but at this point in my life, i needed to know that. i needed to hear it and even though it felt foolish, i really believed them. believing this ended up being a huge step for me! a step towards knowing what’s really true about who i am and what i bring. 
it’s much easier to remember the negative stuff people have spoken—words stick!! james always says that the person who coined that ‘sticks and stones’ saying was a plain idiot. i would agree. words stick and they hurt and they can be cruel. that’s why i feel it’s so important to know what’s true about our friends and family and especially us. 
so i try to make a point of saying it.. telling someone their words are valuable, or that they matter, or how their joy is so contagious or that they make room for others, or that they’re an excellent friend. those sorts of things are [usually] the hardest to believe but in my opinion, the most important to say 🙂

every day in may (top three worst traits)

the challenge today.. top three worst traits. easier than best, maybe? well.. it’s a little easier for me at least! these are some of the things i’m workin’ on 🙂
self judgement going on right now people.
‘go’ mode. when i get crazy driven about something, james calls this my ‘go’ mode. i blitz through everything, forget to let anybody help me, and stress out to the moon. it’s almost like autopilot and i forget what’s even happening around me and get an internal anxiety party.. not good!
saying the same thing over + over. this one mostly applies to james heh. one, because he has the best memory in the world. and two, because i talk to him the most.. but i tell him stories over and over again and have started to ask him in advance if it’s already been shared because i won’t have a clue!
defensive casey. i’mnotdefensive what are you talking about!? is a good example of how i can be from time to time. y-u-c-k. i don’t like it and push against it when it comes up, but gosh darn it all it can be so hard. remembering that i’m not my best mirror helps. also the fact that when i get defensive it’s usually with the people i love the most, who i must remember love me the most, which is helpful for that defensive part 🙂

every day in may (things i didn’t learn in school)

ok, it’s Day 23! today i’m sharing the ‘Things you’ve learned that school won’t teach you’ i loove school but it’s true, there are quite a few things that you can’t find in books.. here’s my list!

+a smile goes a really.. really.. long way
+you can’t please everyone (wish this one wasn’t so flipping hard!)
+books can’t teach people skills, those are lifelong lessons
+you don’t know what you don’t know, so learn! but don’t feel bad for not knowing..
+don’t hold grudges, forgive and move on!
+face your fears, just do it

..and what about you??

every day in may (a rant)

first, a story.

the pool day.
oh! what a day, i thought to myself, you just couldn’t align it any better. my lunch break began and i couldn’t think of a better idea than go for a nice swim. it was beautiful.. warm, sunny, the water just the perfect cool temperature! what’s that i see as i walk towards the pool at my gym—an open space in the lap swimming lanes. open!! what a marvelous opportunity that has befallen me!

i tie up my hair with incredible excitement as i hurriedly whip off my sweats, kick my flip flops under the bench and zip up my bag swim bag. slapping on my pink goggles, i notice a buzz about the deck of the pool, not the typical sunday afternoon crowd, which is a laid-back, share workout tips and giggle together (my usual experience).

today was different. and i was certain my feeling was correct as soon as i spoke with my lane companion. i walked over to greet her. hi there, i say, do you mind if i share the lane with you, my smile is nearly brimming over—after all, it’s the perfect day for a swim!

the acknowledgement.
time for the acknowledgement. what’s this, you ask? well, it’s the thing to do in any lap swimming circumstance. there’s laws in the swimming community about this stuff, you know..one that goes a little something like this:

‘if any person shall require or hope to share a lane with another person, it is an unspoken maxim that he/she who is second to the lane shall acknowledge in some way/form that there is sharing is about to occur.’

possible methods of acknowledgement.
option one: the head nod. acknowledgement by a head-nod is one method.. to which i usually smile and nod; the swimmer that employs this method is a no-bones about them sort of swimmer, i get that. no small talk here and that’s plenty fine.
option two: the question. the other possible method is acknowledgement by way of rhetorical question. ‘do you mind if i share this lane with you?’ is a surefire winner, but with a smile, the ‘can i split the lane with you?’ is equally appropriate. i prefer the question method. these questions are polite but the answer is not to be tampered with. if the pool is full, the answer is firm. you will share. you mustn’t mess with this my friends, this indeed is the way it must happen.

my treasured lifeguarding days where i made people share lanes and be nice!

the lady who messed with the answer.
as i was saying, there was an awkward pause… followed by more awkward pausing. with the most sour of sour expressions, my lane companion replied …i guess i don’t have a choice. hmm alrighty i say kind of shocked, glancing to make sure i hadn’t missed a wide open lane, my last ditch effort to see if there’s somebody—anyyyybody—else to swim with. but no. no chance. i hop in and brush it off.

as i get moving and come down the right side of the lane, my new friend is performing backstroke down the center, causing me to cozy up against the wall scraping my arm! but i continue on, because really—that sort of thing just happens. but then! a few minutes later, i make a turn at the wall (not a flip) and notice an intense scowl firing my way. and later, as we pass again, she’s on a kickboard and she’s dogging me!! i finished up my swim after about thirty more minutes of side eyes from her and hop out. she gets out shortly after and rolls her eyes at me when i sneeze

i smile even bigger this time.. she didn’t notice.

conclusion: be nice!!!!
to all the ladies doing laps at the local gym, let’s all learn a little poolside politeness and we’ll all get along much better. and to all the other people of the land who are prone to dogging people, let’s all give it a nice healthy try and be nice! i promise i’ll try, too 🙂

every day in may (getting a little vintage!)

oh this is a fun one you guys! i’m digging deep today my friends, i’m looking into the vault for my favorite posts in my archives (for the challenge!). looking back, i find it funny [read: cringe] what i chose to write about just a year ago, but also happy that i decided to record it at all. these are just a smattering, a couple essays, a recipe, pictures, blah, but i suppose these are a couple of my faves 🙂
this one’s about doing the laundryoh the woes of our first apartment, people! oh the woes!

an essay on october: a fun little diddy

some advice from my grandma ella: she was wonderful.

ohhhh, small town living! how you know you live in a small town.. we do.
favorite cookie recipe in the w-h-o-l-e world: if you take away anything on this list, make it this!!!
when i fell in love.. the first picture we ever took together as friends.

so you want to be a writer? a poem that keeps me going.

i made a guide to santa cruz 🙂 just in case you ever come visit!
and if you’re not do the blog every day in may thing, you should totally do today’s because duh!! i want to read all your fun archives! and if you are doing the challenge, let me know because i absolutely can-not wait to read your faves!!

every day in may (struggle street)

today, i’m gonna get real with y’all and ‘share something [i’m] struggling with right now.’
originally, i got a little stuck with this post and thought.. meh.. might as well just read what everyone else has to say about struggle cause i feel like i’m always ringing the same gong over here. not just in the blogosphere, but everywhere. my ‘meh’ had to do with being tired of talking about what i struggle with. but then i saw s-o-o-o many who struggle with the same thing and thought, nope! just do it. share it again. in a way, it’s just another chance for me to say out loud i ultimately do not want to end up here. so alas, here i go, sharing with you 🙂

anxiety. that’s my struggle. insert circumstance a, b or c and i can already tell you i’m going to end up figuring out a way to worry about it, so crafty, i am. you guys, i can even figure out a way to get anxious about laying on the beach. worry, plain and simple.

me enjoying a moment of non-anxiety yesterday after my run 🙂
sometimes, it’s a matter of me saying no to letting myself get there. other times it’s someone [typically james, or an older wiser friend] coming alongside and kindly encouraging me to cut it the heck out. then there are the massive amount of sticky notes with verses on them hidden throughout my purse or planner 🙂
even with all that help though, it’s still a struggle, ya know? ok now people 🙂 ..what about you??