hello may seventh! so let’s get at the challenge for today!
Day 7, Tuesday: The thing(s) you’re most afraid of.
oh fear! fear is just a sucker right?? ..and an all-too familiar friend of mine. on one hand it makes me feel dumb. like really.. are you seriously worried about that? move on already. on the other hand, it’s soo real, it’s in your face, it’s a jerk. and it’s so flipping convincing.
fear of being wrong and fear of being abandoned/rejected are two that come to mind right away. a dear friend and pastor to us once told me that while some fears will be completely healed and out of our lives, others will never fully go away, you just learn how to handle them. and oh boy, that’s definitely true for me. on one hand, [i believe] god has totally healed certain fears in me, and thank-stinkin-goodness because they can fill me with such anxiety. i find myself worrying that at any moment, life could be flipped upside-down and i’d lose the things that are so very precious to me. blech.
along with that is one that james and i have been discussing really openly as of late—fear of dying young. i even dislike writing it, you know?.. both of us have lost friends and loved ones much too early in life. the sort of thing that just breaks you because it just seems like it’s not supposed to happen that way and it’s not. and i am so incredibly grateful that i have someone to be open about it with. because once it’s stuck in my mind and nobody else knows about it..well that’s when it’s really a jerk.
i ultimately believe in my head that there’s nothing at all to fear, in my mind that’s true. but knowing that’s true though in the day-to-day, when a thought flies across your mind and it’s so convincing, well that’s different. what would i do if a, b, c happened? or what if this is the last time i see them because [dot dot dot]? etc etc etc. it takes different forms but all of them are so destructive and anxiety causing.
so since i’m working that all out at the moment, i thought i’d share a couple of verses i’ve been holding onto when all of that seems to be in my face. and if you feel alone in your fears, please know that you’re not! these verses that remind me that i have nothing to dread, god is with me and i’m never alone, that there is no higher authority than him whatsoever!
Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous.
Do not fear or be in dread of them,
for it is the Lord your God who goes with you.
He will not leave you or forsake you.
Hebrews 13:5-6 …for he has said,
“I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
So we can confidently say, “The Lord is my helper;
I will not fear; what can man do to me?”